me <3 you

erti saya, dalam hidup dia.

2009-11-13T15:31:00.002+08:00

apa ertinya saya dalam hidupnya.
saya butakan mata, saya pekakkan telingga, saya diam membisu seribu bahasa.
kosong katanya.
ertinya?
saya bukan yang terbaik,
cuma saya mahukan senyuman, tawa riang darinya dan ianya dari saya.
janji saya, semuanya saya simpan.
untuk suatu hari nanti.
apakah saya?
tatkala segala luahan rasa sukar hendak dikeluarkan.
bohongnya saya, kerana saya menyayanginya.
katakan saya tidak berguna,
katakan saya ni bodoh.
katakan semua.
asalakan awak gembira.
kerana itu satu yang saya pinta.
sebelum saya hembuskan nafas terakhir..
sebelum saya lelapkan mata saya buat selama lamanya..
sebelum saya tidak mendengar lagi..
sebelum saya tidak mampu berkata2 lagi..
saya nak awak tahu, awak lah yang terhebat.

her.

2009-11-12T19:54:00.003+08:00

Kalau hidup tanpa kamu, xmungkin lengkap.
Sebab kamu sebahagian daripada hidup saya sekarang.
Cerita kamu dan saya, tiada penghujung.
Kita semaikan dengan semua suka duka, pahit getir, mengharungi cabaran ini.
Sejak 3 bulan yang lalu, kita selalu bersama.
Kamu yang selalu ada, di sebelah saya.
Sentiasa berdiri walau apa jua keadaan sekali pun.
Saya bertahan kerana kamu.
Tawa rajuk kamu, sentiasa bermain di kepala tatkala rindu akan kamu.
Semuanya indah, sabar insyaallah kita akan bersama.
Saya sayang kamu.

random.

2009-10-17T15:11:00.002+08:00

i can't see, but i can feel something.

are you?

since you are away.

2009-10-16T01:53:00.002+08:00

since you are away, i'm lost.
where are you love?
i'm all alone, when you left me.
there's no more smile.
no more laugh.
pain, you left me here.
i miss you, i really really miss you.

since you are away,
i'm nothing.
you left me an empty heart.
i'm not the man i used to be.
searching for you.
waiting for you.

since you are away,
i think about you.
every minutes and every seconds.
where's my sweetheart?
hold my hands,
so i won't get lost.

since you are away,
all the memories,
sad, happy still in my mind.
will never fade away.
because i know,
that's what i need the most.
right here, right now.

since you are away,
u're my painkiller,
u are the one who can take this pain away.
i'm addicted to you.
my painkiller.
take my pain away, now and forever.

since you are away,
only god knows,
how much do i miss you.
how much do i love you.
how much do i care about you.
it's hard.
but i try and try and never give up.

since you are away,
i'm waiting patiently,
to see you in front of my eyes,
to see ur smile,
to hear ur laugh.
to hold you and never ever let you go.
i love you.

:'(

demam.

2009-10-15T20:11:00.002+08:00

peristiwa yang berlaku kat melaka central kelmarin, maseh mengugat jiwa, terkilan dan sedih. syaz, balik ke shah alam bersama teman2, dan pulang ke rumah esok harinya. sedihnya aku, cuba bertenang dan lupakan segala duka.
tatkala dia pulang, aku demam. kata ku, demam rindu agaknya. entahlah. banyak yang difikirkan. tertanya2 kenapa aku jarang benar berblogging sejak akhir2 ini?
demam, yang kian reda, kemalasan, kebuntuan mencari jalan. tiada shiapa disisi untuk menemani. kini, aku terpuruk dirumah, di hadapkan tv, laptop, dan ps3. aku bosan.
kata2 rindu diucapkan bertalu talu, tanpa mengenal penat lelah pun.
mendengar suara dia, nun jauh mengubat segala kerinduan. tapi jauh disudut hati, alangkah indahnya jika aku juga ada bersamanya. iri hati, bila mendengar dia keluar dengan kawan2nya sedangkan aku seorang diri, berjalan entah ke mana, keseorangan. menonton, makan, seorang di panggung wayang, melihat orang lain yang berpasangan. sedihnya.
aku di hujani seribu persoalan, sejuta pertanyaan. kemana dia menghilang. begitu juga rakan2, teman seperjuangan yang kini jauh di mata mahupun di hati, sms xsekali, telefon pun ujung2 kali. aku sudah biasa, katakan apa saja aku terima. kini, telefon yang menjadi perhubungan utama telah hancur musnah aku kerjakan, akan kebodohan aku. ianya musnah di depan mata. :)

i remember.

2009-10-07T03:28:00.004+08:00

dulu, saya malu dengan awak.
saya xbanyak cakap.
saya suka tgk awak.
awak comel.
bila awak bercakap sarawak dengan kay.
hati saya lagi terpikat.
jatuh hati saya kat awak.
tapi saya ni pemalu.
jadi saya simpan sahaja rasa sayang, cinta, dan suka pada awak.
masa pun berputar pantas.
saya kenal awak dari jauh.
xdekat pun dengan awak.
bermula dengan facebook.
saya lagi rapat dengan awak.
saya ajak awak keluar.
saya purpose awak untuk jadi gf saya.
sampai sekarang dah 2 bulan lebih.
kita bersama dari tarikh 29 Julai 2009.
saya harap, semuanya indah antara kita berdua.
hingga akhir hayat.
sampai saya pejam mata.
amin..

sayataktahuapayangsayarasasekarang.

2009-10-05T02:10:00.003+08:00

Nooneknows.howdoifeelorwhatdoifeelrighthererightnow.i'munpredictable,isingalot,justtomakemyselfcalm.iplayloudmusicinmy heart,justtoforgiveandforget.deepinsidemyheartthosethingswillalwayskeeponspinninginmyhead.Willitbewonderful,ifthere'sonlymeandyou?Will itwonderfultoforgetordelete hepast?Idon'tknow,itwillkeeponplayingand playing..what'surs?

everything

2009-10-05T02:02:00.003+08:00

if you talk, i'll lend my ears.
if you cry, i'll give my shoulder.
if you're happy, i'll give my smile.
if you're crying, i'll give you my jokes
if you're cold, i'll give you my hug

what if i am?

maaf, bila aku tak sempurna.

2009-10-04T01:32:00.001+08:00

maaf, bila aku tak pernah sempurna buat kamu.

i care about someone.

2009-10-03T12:59:00.002+08:00

do you ever cry for someone that you really love?
do you even care about someone you love?
well i do.
i love you so much
there's no one can ever replace you in my heart
you're my soul, my lungs, my air.
you're my everything.
i care about you more than i care about meself
i'll give you the world
i'll give up my life.
just for you.
i would die for you.
because you're the only ONE that i care about.
:(

1st Raya, Expect the UNEXPECTED.

2009-09-22T01:38:00.002+08:00

1st Raya, bangun pagi lagi nak siap2 mandi raya. Hari raya tahun ni xmacam dulu pun. Xrasa dia punya keseronokan macam dulu. Baju Melayu purple di sarungkan, bersama kain sampin. After solat raya, kitaorang bergambar depan rumah, dan gerak ke rumah mak tok & tok yah. Makan sikit, then berkumpul, baca doa sama2.

Dalam kesyahduan tok yah membaca doa dan berkumpul sama, di kacau oleh saudara, umur 10 tahun, dan dia seorang down syndrome tahap hyper. Di ludah, di tendang, di sepuk oleh Irham. Perkara yang biasa di pagi raya kerana dia seorang yang hyper. Perkara yang luar biasa, aku di cakar kat mata oleh Irham, pedih dan sakit hatinya tuhan saja yang tahu. Aku gigit dia, tanpa belas kasihan, dia membalas jelingan sahaja dan tidak menangis. Sakitnya hati. Tercalar imej aku. Haha.

Saat tiba masa bersalaman bersama kaum keluarga, duit raya di berikan, peluk berpelukan, linangan air mata oleh mak cik2 ku, dan juga kata2 semangat oleh mereka. Semuanya seperti biasa. Eki membuat pengumuman, bila tarikh perkahwinannya, dan mungkin dia tidak dapat beraya seperti tahun tahun yang lepas seperti ini. Luar biasa, Eki memberi duit raya ala kasino, "pilih salah satu sampul raya, di mana dalam sampul tu mengandungi jumlah wang dari 50 sen ke RM 50" Tekalah.. aku dapat nilai yang plaing rendah yakni 50 sen pada hari itu. damn! Izhar, mendapat RM 50. nampaknya bukanlah rezeki aku, rezeki lebih memihak kepada Izhar.

Setelah itu, kitaorang pulang ke rumah nenek duyong. Seperti biasa, semuanya bersalam, bermaaf maafan. Ketupat rendang, memang pilihan utama ku kerana, tiap tahun masakan nenek begitu sedap, sehinggakan aku bertambah dan meratah lauk pauk yang di hidangkan nenek. Tiada perkara yang luar biasa berlaku di rumah nenek. Hanya segelintir saudara, yang tidak mahu bertegur sapa. tidak mengapa.

Pulang ke rumah, dan bersiap sedia untuk pulang ke kampung ayah, Alor Gajah. Ke rumah Kak Wel, rumah Nek Bik (belah tok yah) di Keru, dan akhirnya ke rumah Tok Bik/Nek Bik (belah mak tok). Semuanya biasa sahaja. Luar biasa bila kau terlihat abang azfar, yang dulunya seorang yang agak berisi, kini hanya tinggal tulang sahaja. Apa rahsianya? "Sibuk dengan final projek/sem". aku hanya mengiakannya, dan aku tidak tahu apa rahsianya.

Satu hari, penat, mengantuk memandu sepanjang hari, semuanya hilang bila kepala di letakkan di atas bantal, bersama penghawa dingin yang menemani aku di malam hari. terlena sementara bagi menunggu hari esok, hari raya yang kedua.

dulu yang biasa, di kejutkan dengan hari yang luar biasa. :)

SALAM AIDILFITRI!

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin.

2009-09-20T03:14:00.002+08:00

Saban tahun, ada sahaja cerita tentang hari raya. Takbir raya mengingatkan kita, hari kemenangan kita sebagai umat islam yang menempuh bulan Ramadhan dgn penuh dugaan. Alhamdulillah. tiap tahun pasti ada kekurangan ahli keluarga, sama ada yang telah meninggal dunia ataupun yang meninggalkan kita. (Al fatihah buat mereka yang tiada)

Tahun ni, Mak Su, Pak Su, Naiim, Najjm, dan Diina xbalik raya bersama kitaorang kat Malaysia. Irfan, sambung belajar kat India, insyaallah next year Februari dia balik. Rasa serba xkena tahun ni tanpa diorang.

Nun di sana, dengan harapan bergembira dengan keluarga dan kawan2. Xdapat nak bersama pada satu syawal ni. Saling tukar menukar mesej, bertanya kan khabar dan rindu masing2 yang jauh di pisah lautan biru. Berkongsi kesedihan tentang raya masing2 ketika waktu dulu. Rindu akan yang tiada, apakan daya, Tuhan lebih sayangkan mereka. Panjatkan doa untuk kesejahteraan hidup mereka di sana. Amin Ya Rabbal Al Amin.

Sibuk, marahnya ayah, kerja rumah, cat mengecat, sungguh memenatkan, sehingga hari ini barulah ayah memberi upah untuk membeli baju raya yang xseberapa. akhirnya, pilih apa saja yang ada di depan mata. Kerinduan akan lemang, ketupat pulut nenek sentiasa bermain di fikiran. Rendang, sambal sotong sememangnya di nantikan. Bisingnya mercun, datangnya dar pakcik2, saudara saudara semua mengubat kerinduan hari raya. melihat mereka yang ketawa, gelak2 gembira, aku juga turut bersama.

hari raya ini, lain dari yang lain, tiada yang luar biasa. kosong ditelan usia. esok lusa, hilang mana semua kerinduan, kegembiraan hari ini. mungkinkah kembali?

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF
ZAHIR & BATIN

Days Become Weeks.

2009-09-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

Second day, since Yoko's away. I've been calling and messaging her, just to tell how bad i miss her and want her right here right now. I'm not going out that often, hang out with friends, i just locked myself inside my room, my house. No where to go, but home. I'm waiting you here Yoko. I miss you and i'm dying over here without you by my side syg..

Hari raya's coming, and i still haven't buy new clothes, just a new purple Baju Melayu. Oh i miss my childhood, where hari raya is the favorite day of my life. Fire crackers, cousins, sing along raya songs with them, but the most happiest thing happened on that day is, Duit Raya!

Now, it's so much way different. Everybody's change, i miss Naiimuddin, Najjmuddin, and Ad Diina. :( I wish they were here to celebrate Raya with us this year.

Sad, sad, sad.. Ramadhan's leaving here comes Syawal. :((

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN..

Dug Is In A Good Hand.

2009-09-17T13:40:00.003+08:00

Before Yoko Ono's went back to her hometown, Miri. She called me and ask me a favor whether i can take care of her hamster, Mat a.k.a Dug (just gave this name to that Hammy) or not?

Well, i said yes. Oh my, Dug, u're Black&White, cute, and Funny! I'll take care of him, while Yoko's away. Dug will always remind me as Yoko. I know Yoko's not here, but Dug a.k.a Mat is here with me to represent Yoko. :( I miss you everday and night syg..

I MISS YOU!
:(

i miss you.

2009-09-17T02:22:00.002+08:00

the day has finally arrived, the day that she'll be away for awhile, 16th September 2009. She had to go back for raya, where she will celebrate it with her family and friends.

i've been prepared myself before ramadhan. i've set my mind, she's gone for awhile, for her own good, to be happy with family and friends. plus she'll be away for just 1 week plus. Well, everybody's going back for raya. Dayat, Helmi, Kerel, Acap, Daus, Kay, Dila, Afiq, but i've to stay here, because i'll be celebrating raya here in Melaka, like always.

before she go back, we had our last day, in Melaka. Sorry, i was so rush and i couldn't prepare anything for you. you gave me a sweet card, and i really wanna hug u in that car, comot. sayang, if you said that i'm sweet, u're you're the sweetest syg. i didn't gave you much, you give me everything that i ever wanted in my whole life.

you gave me love, hope, smile, laugh, hug, kisses, card, blue car button and more than everything. you make me jealous, missing you. you completed me. you're a part of me. those memories, you and me? how can i ever delete it in my mind. the sweetest thing that ever happened in my life. i love you, you love me too.

just like carl and ellie, john and yoko, and now shujak and syaz. we could do great things together. all i want is you, yes you. to be my bride, the day will come insyaallah.. i pray and pray so that you'll be by myside till the end of my life and after life sayang. did i ever told you that i'll never get tired of saying " i love you" and "i miss you" to you? yup, guess i did.

imagine if u're not here, what am i? i'm just a complete useless human being. there's no one to share, to talk, to hug and kiss, to love, to wake me up in the morning, to hear laughter, to see smile and sunshine. and i'm gonna miss you for the whole long time. yes, no one can ever replace you. no one sayang.

while i'm writing this post, i can't stop thinking of you. you, syaniza rali, my heart and soul, my nicotine, and i'm addicted to you. my sweety pie, pumpkin, ellie, my yoko ono, everything is you. you you you and you syg.

i'm sorry if our day is not as sweet as carl and ellie story. i'll try my best to make you happy, eventhough i know i'm not perfect and not the best. insyaallah.

sayang, i really miss you, right here right now. honestly i do..

b, kamek indu b glak2. :'(

it's blue, and it's you.

2009-09-14T04:15:00.002+08:00

darn! ayah was mad at me today. someone doesn't want to reply my message or return my call. I suppose to wake up early in the morning, 7 to be exact. but i couldn't. that's why ayah was mad at me. urgh!

today, we'll have presentation on our microprocessor and microcontroller system assignment, but our hardware doesn't work. a stressful day again. luckily, yoko was there to hear my problems and help me calm.

she blew a blue balloon for me and we made a promise. "Kalau u sayang i jaga belun ni, jangan pecah kan!" I just made fun with her, she laugh and laugh. Yoko looks happy. I really want to keep that promise. I realy appreciate that balloon because it's from her, and she blew it and tide it for me, eventhough she doesn't know how to tide it.

guess what? not even 5 hours, the balloon was gone, habis, pecah! yes, i smile and laugh. damn! what am i thinking. even she didn't told me, i can see from her eyes that yoko was really sad. kecewa! yes, i'm stupid! urgh!!!!

she told me that, she kept that blue balloon just for me, even she wants to blow it for herself, but she kept it for me, to blow it for me, and she wanted me to kept it. but, i've done the stupid thing. i know she's really upset wih me, kecewa semua campur.

sayang, it's blue, and it's you. i kesal sgt2 for not keeping my promise. i was stupid, damn. sayang, whatever it is, i still love you no matter what. i love you sgt2. :(

i'm
SORRY!

9 days left for raya.

2009-09-12T01:59:00.002+08:00

hari raya's coming up. someboby's going home this 16th September. darn! i'm gonna miss her like hell. oh my, i was home alone today,because mama, kak long, and kak ngah were away to KLIA to send irfan to India!

Irfan, good luck in India okayh? :) Be a good doctor nnt ;)

I don't know what's for berbuka, luckily, Yoko's here. She cooked nasi goreng, and i cooked that chicken kunyit. wuhu~!
Ouh, that ice blended! ngehehhe!

For the first time, me and her cooked together. That was another moment that i will never forget, oh i'm gonna miss that moment so much!

Sayang, i fell in love with you since the first time i met you.

Mwah!

menari dengan ku.

2009-09-10T04:29:00.003+08:00

kalau itu yang kau maukan,

menari dengan ku,
aku tunaikan,
ingat waktu dulu?
kau dan aku di bawah lampu?
di temani hujan,
dan aku menari dengan mu.

aku peluk tubuhmu,
kau juga begitu,
ku cium dahimu,
ku peluk erat tubuh mu,
tika aku mengigil kesejukan.

hanya rintik hujan,
menjadi muzik dan alunan lagu,
kau dan aku sahaja di situ.
tiada siapa,
kau dan aku sahaja,
di saksikan malam yang basah.

alangkah indahnya,
jika kita begitu selamanya,
insyaallah,
kita terus kekal bersama,
selamanya, hingga hujung dunia.
insyaallah.

tuhan saja yang tahu,
bila kau bersama aku,
aku cinta pada mu,
aku rindu padamu.
kerna kau yang satu.
satu...

madah cinta,
puitis kata,
ketika kau menari dengan ku,
dan engkau,
aku sayang kan kau.

akan satu hari nanti,
aku lafazkan akad,
menjadikan kau isteri,
teman sepanjang hidup ku...

amin ya rabbal al amin.

ouh my.

2009-09-07T17:01:00.001+08:00

i'm stupid, i'm wrong, and i'm selfish.

I Was Born To Make You Happy..

2009-09-06T02:13:00.003+08:00

Hari ni, berbuka kat Seoul Garden with Afiq, Muhaimin, Kay, Dila, and of course with my one and only dearest, sweetest, greatest girlfriend, Syaz, Yoko Ono.
Muhaimin, datang lambat, but tak lambat mana.

Alhamdulillah, 15 hari dah puasa.

Before that, Yoko kejut kan saya, pukul 2, thks to iPhone, and a big big thanks to Yoko jugak, sangat2! (Harap kan Sony Ericson memang xbangun la saya) Yoko nak beli that dress, yang dia minat sgt kat kitschen. Yup2 she bought it, and i was so happy for her. Tapi saya xde kat sana untuk shopping bersama Yoko (biarkan girls will always be girls kan?), terpaksa/sukarela tolong ayah untuk mencantik kan laman rumah, dengan menambah lampu2 dkt laman. hoho. tapi sebenarnya pak cik wahab yang kerja lebih.

Dah nak raya kan?

Before, aku pergi Seoul Garden, my last job of the day was, cuci tembok. hahaha. ayah nak suruh cat esok, camne? hehe.

Hari yang gembira, di kecewakan pula dengan xdapat ambil ps3. waaaa~!! dah 2 bulan pergi repair, last week aku call dah boleh ambil, but then ayah xnak.. penat saya bodek. pergh!
katanya esok, hah! kenalah buat kerja membodek lagi. camne ni..

Tapi, sejujurnya, i had fun today. Enjoy the moment with my Yoko sgt. Oops, td kitaorang gi jonker, saya ingat lagi, dia tunjuk kan mumoo yang comel, tapi saya senyap je. Nak belikan dia, but not that day lah. Tapi hari ni lah hari nya, saya tipu dia, saya kata nak ke toilet kat jonker, but saya pergi beli that mumoo.

Yoko, happy je. saya pernah tulis ayat ni " what's the different between u're smile and my smile. u're smiling when u're happy, but i'm smiling because you're happy" yes and i'm smiling!
Then pergi main bowling, (padahal saya xmain pun) melihat/tgk orang main. :D Saya xterer mana pun.. T.T

After that, kitaorang ke abraar, i miss my coke light! that's why.. hahaa. but i can't stay long because, ayah ada kat rumah.. kena jaga hati siket la.. but what i miss the most is, to spend time with my honey b, sweety pie! hmmm... and we're still sms when i write this post.

Sayang, i was born to make you happy! I love you sangat2! mwah~!!

Tuhan Saja Yang Tahu..

2009-09-05T17:35:00.002+08:00

hari yang gembira, dikecewakan, memenatkan, dan celaru segala fikiran.

:'(

thks everyone.

You Are A Part of My Life..

2009-09-02T01:15:00.006+08:00

Ayah;
Shujak xpernah rasa kali pertama Ayah pegang Shujak, cium Shujak, waktu Shujak lahir, dan Shujak xtahu betapa gembiranya Ayah waktu Shujak lahir, tapi jauh dari sudut hati Ayah, Shujak tahu Ayah sayang Shujak.
Pernah dulu, Ayah cakap, " Dah besar dah anak ayah.." Shujak tahu, Ayah xdapat lihat Shujak membesar, dari kecil hingga remaja. Tapi xapalah Ayah, Ayah beri kasih sayang yang secukupnya kat Shujak, dan Shujak menghargainya selalu. Ayah, you're a part of my life.

Mama;
Shujak xpernah rasa keperitan dan kesusahan mama, sewaktu mengandungkan dan melahirkan Shujak. Sejak Shujak bayi sampai sekarang, Mama yang jaga makan, minum, sekolah, dan didikan kat Shujak, tatkala Ayah jauh mencari rezeki. Mama, Shujak bukan anak yang baik dan mencuba untuk jadi yang terbaik.
Mama banyak berkorban untuk kitaorang, Kak Long, Kak Ngah, Shujak, dan Apit. Xda apa yang dapat balas jasa Mama, inysaallah Shujak akan berikan yang terbaik. Mama, you're a part my life.

Nenek Baru;
Al- Fatihah buat nenek baru..
Nenek, teringat kembali waktu nenek jaga Shujak, Kak Long, Kak Ngah, Apit, Abang Eki, Abang Airol, Abang Iwan dgn Ain. Nenek dah xde, Shujak doakan nenek dengan orang2 yang beriman kat sana, insyaallah. Tatkala Mama sibuk mencari sesuap rezeki, nenek lah yang menjaga kitaorang sampai besar. Shujak rndu nenek masak kuah pindang, kobis masak lemak nenek. Dan Shujak paling rndu nenek suap kan Shujak dulu. Shujak manja dengan nenek. Kalau hari minggu pun nenek datang, bawa nasi lemak bungkus, untuk Shujak nenek belikan dua, sebab nenek tahu Shujak kuat makan.
Nenek banyak kenangan manis dengan nenek, macam mana Shujak boleh nak lupakan nenek? Waktu nenek pergi dulu, Shujak datang menziarah nenek, nenek kurus je. Sorang pun xtahu nenek dah pergi buat selamanya, sehinggakan orang yang pertama tahu ialah Kak Long, nenek simpan nombor Kak Long bawah bantal nenek. Nek, Shujak nangis, meraung, bila nenek terpejam mata, kaku kat situ, xlagi peluk Shujak, cium Shujak waktu Shujak ziarah nenek waktu itu. Tapi waktu tu, Shujak yang kucup dahi nenek, peluk nenek, doakan nenek agar tenang di sana. Nek, you're a part of my life.

Kak Long;
Kita selalu bergaduh, Kak Long suka mengarah. Shujak pernah patahkan jari Kak Long secara xsengaja. Shujak rasa kejam sangat, dan sangat bersalah. Tapi, bila Shujak perlukan Kak Long, Kak Long mesti ada walaupun Shujak kena bebel dulu dengan Kak Long.
First time, Shujak eksiden, Kak Long ada kat sana, tolong Shujak. Bila Shujak nak guna duit, Kak Long juga yang ada sama. Kak Long, air yang di cincang xakan putus, Shujak sayang Kak Long lebih daripada apa pun. Kak Long, you're a part of my life.

Kak Ngah;
Shujak terbaca banyak poskad dari ayah, waktu ayah selalu travel. Kita kecik lagi kan masa tu? Ayah selalu pesan kat Kak Ngah " Adik jangan selalu gaduh dengan Shujak" Shujak xfaham, tapi betul ke kita selalu gaduh. Kak Ngahlah yang senang nak bercakap bagitahu masalah, Kak Ngah suka bergurau dan selalu buat semua orang tersenyum dan ketawa. Pendek kata, Kak Ngah ni pembodek besar.
:D
Kak Ngah xselalu nak balik rumah, Shujak selalu rindu dengan Kak Ngah, boleh keluar sama2, lepak sama2, hisap rokok sama2. haha. Kak Ngah, you're a part of my life.

Syafiq/Apit/Apple;
Seorang je adik, menyakitkan hati, tapi Shujak rasa dalam hati dia, sayang sangat kat Shujak. Segala masalah dia mesti nak cerita kat Shujak. Terutama sekali hal dia dengan kawan kat kolej. Apit selalu gaduh dengan Shujak, tak kira apa, kat mana, bila pun, pasti akan gaduh. Tapi akhirnya, baik semula. Apit, "Air di cincang xakan putus" kan?
Sekarang apit belajar kat KL, jauh, kalau dulu hari2 mesti gaduh, sekarang kurang, Shujak rndu sangat gaduh dgn apit waktu dulu2, Ayah selalu bangun terjaga tengah2 malam dengan tali pinggang Ayah kat tangan. Tapi apit yang suka start nangis2, kononnya minta belas kasihan ayah. Dulu selalu nangis sampai tertido kan apit?
Apit, you're a part of my life.

Syaz/Honey B/ Sweety Pie/Sayang;
Shujak xpernah begitu happy dalam hidup Shujak. Walaupun sebulan kita bersama, macam dah bertahun lamanya. 29 Julai 2009, sama tarikh dengan ulang tahun ayah dan mama. Shujak xplan pun, semuanya kebetulan. Biarlah afiq kata kita gam gajah, Shujak xkisah pun apa kata mereka. Shujak nak kita berdua je selalu, dan selamanya. Banyak lagi yang kita kena lalui kan sayang? Biar lah kita tempuhi dengan tenang dan tabah. Sayang, you're a part of my life. :)

A Month Ago..

2009-08-29T15:11:00.003+08:00

A month ago,
I wrote "I don't have the guts to say the 3 words" on my facebook status.

A month ago,
you said "Yes" to my question.

A month ago,
You make me speechless and make me wanna cry, as i'm so happy when i heard the answer.

A month ago,
You said, "We're so dead tomorrow", because of our friends will made fun of us

A month ago,
U're the greatest thing that ever happened in my life.

A month ago,
I've made a promise, that i'll love you forever, no matter what and who u are in the past, all i want is to make you happy and smile with me always.

A month ago,
Will always in my heart, you and me, always.

I LOVE YOU

Yoko Ono, the truth is inside John's heart..

2009-08-25T19:03:00.005+08:00

It was a tiring day ever, what John wants to do is bump his head on his pillow and sleep.
Stop thinking about his assignment to be done, prepare for his exam, and his lab report. He's having a good time with Yoko last night, night that he wish that will never ends.
He woke up that evening, and found out that his phone battery is totally flat. So he charge his phone and Kak Long ask John to follow her to pasar ramadhan and mak tok's house.

John came back and looked at his phone, 25 or more missed call from Yoko Ono and SMSes from her.. "Yes, i'm dead again" John said to himself. He was hoping that Yoko will understand him, he hates excuses, but he have to tell the truth..
For the second time he did this to her, and he knows that apologize is not everything. no words can't be use at this moment. He remembered the first time he didn't reply and answer her call, Yoko was totally mad at him. He tried everything to beg her forgiveness, and finally.
Imagine what will happened this.

Yes, John was afraid to replied, and he tried to apologize.. and he knows that Yoko will never forgive him this time..
He'll feel so sad, very sad.. and don't know what to do, and was hoping that she'll forgive him...
John loves you Yoko.

When The Rain Falls..

2009-08-25T00:42:00.002+08:00

It was raining yesterday night.
John and Yoko were at Bukit Beruang, Abraar restaurant to be exact.
Yoko asked John, "Wanna play in the rain?". "Yeah? Nanti lah" John replied.
After awhile, Yoko and John walked to John's car in the rain. John was shivering, and Yoko held him close just to warm him up.
John took Yoko in front of his house, where they can be together alone while everybody's sleeping.
John step out of his car, and took Yoko's hands and held her close..
He kissed her forehead in the rain, the sweetest moment that he and Yoko can't never forget..
Holding her tight, he told her how much do he loves her. "I love you so much.." Yoko reply " I love you too.. They started to dance and hug each other as the rain drops is the music. Nobody's there just John and Yoko..
"I love you sgt2, sayang u.." John said and Yoko replied " Me too.. It's my first time.."
and John kiss her forehead again..
John will never get bored or tired to kiss Yoko's forehead. Every time he kiss her forehead, it's a pray from him to her..
John and Yoko wish, that night will never end.. and let the memory always in their heart, permanently.. :)

waktu ramadhan dulu dan sekarang.. bezanya,,

2009-08-23T22:16:00.003+08:00

time ramadhan la paling best, minta je apa mesti dapat.
aku start puasa sejak tadika lagi, naik darjah satu aku hairan kenapa kawan2 aku xpuasa.
kata diorang "mak kite kata puasa stgh hari je, rehat makan" sambil makan karipap. xboleh blah.

time sekolah dulu, aku dgn bestfriend aku lah nakal, Ahmad Soleh Yusof and his bros, Zaki, Hidin Fuad! time ni Aie xde lagi.
:D
Main mercun!!! Pergh~!!
Naik bukit blakang rumah aku, cari cicak kobeng mana tah. Ambik bom cina yang merah tuh, sumbat kat mulut cicak tuh, pssssssss.... BOMM!! hahahaha.. terburai cicak tu weyhh..
Fuad dgn Hidin memang terbaik.
Tangkap katak masuk dalam baldi, bakar mercun gasing ngan roket (patah kan lidi dia nanti dia merayau). Kuar2 je katak tu dah macam buta pening2 katak. hahahha..
And aku pernah hampir putus jari men mercun. dem it hidin! dia bakar mercun tu tba2 je dah la kat jari aku lg. fuhhh~!! but now, ktaorang dah besar... zaki, soleh, hidin suma dah besar.. tinggal lah adik diorang aie, mmg xlah nak men ngan adik dia je.. arghhh...

Dulu, mak tok rajin buat kuih.. aku ngan apit kena duk umah mak tok, blaja ngaji ngan tok yah, while mak tok bake cookies.. huhuhu. my favourite dulu, kuih suji, ngan cornflakes.. memang terbaik.. tergoda bila mak tok bake.. malam tu lepas terawikh ktaorang bantai habis2an.. tapi skang mak tok xkuat, nak buat kuih pun xlarat.. aku pun dah besar, jarang benar pergi rumah maktok, bulan puasa je la.. sebab terawikh kat surau umah maktok.. :)

Paling malas bulan puasa, bangun sahurr.................................. memang xlah nak bgn semata2 nak mkn (dulu lah) padahal sunnah nabi.. paling terbaik skali peristiwa xleh lupa.. milo tumpah atas seluar aku.. arghh tuhan je yg tahu.. esok apit seperti biasa membahankan aku "Well Done telur ko kan bang semalam?" dem..
:D

Dulu, waktu kecik best sgt...... Malam raya mana semua cousin balik, ktaorang takbir kat luar hahaha, nyanyi " Esok, hari raya" lagu ktaorang sendiri kecik2 dulu aaa.. nyanyi dgn irfan, izhar, apit, ain, kak long, kak ngah, abang hud.. i miss you guys... irfan x ah.. hahahaha.. :) tp sekarang suma dah lain. aku dah xcam dulu, kalau naiim ada adik.. best boleh kacau diorang. best skali tgk naiim moody pagi raya.. hahahahha...

beza dah dulu ngan skang... :(

Kamu.

2009-08-21T03:17:00.003+08:00

Hati xbesar mana untuk mencari keberanian.
Sekali pandang, sejuk hati dan perasaan ingin mengenalinya mendalam.
Jauh dari sudut perbualan kawan2.
Sedikit sebanyak aku mengenalinya.
Tiba waktu itu, aku mahu mengenalinya dgn rapat.
Melalui facebook lah aku rapat dgn kamu.
Biarkan mereka semua berkata apa.
Aku tunduk, tersenyum xmenghiraukan mereka.
Biarkan semuanya indah.
Tatkala itulah aku mencari keberanian untuk mengatakan kata cinta kepada kamu.
Keberanian itu akhirnya terpacul, dan aku hanya menunggu jawapan kamu.
Dan kamu katakan ya, aku terdiam seribu bahasa.
Masa pun berlalu, aku menunggu kamu dengan penuh doa di dada.
Aku jadi yang pertama dalam hidup kamu.
Ku kucup dahimu bersertakan doa agar kamu sentiasa tenang di hati bila aku bersama kamu.
Cincin itu adalah aku dan kamu.
Aku hilang arah tanpa kamu.
Saat kamu bersama aku, adalah saat yang tiada gantinya.
Aku sayang kamu.

how much do i love you..

2009-08-18T17:37:00.002+08:00

how much do i love you? question that people ask when they were together.
sayang, i love you more than anything, anything

Every moment i've spent with you and all the memories of us will always be in my heart and mind..
i always wonder, what will happen to me when u're not around..

"Will i be alone?","Will i be sad, when i think of u?", "What's me when u're not around?", "I'm lost without you?"..

Damn, i really2 gonna miss you..

Even u pergi kl for a week pun i dah cam apa tah..
:(

All i want u to know is, i'll love you as long as i live, whatever happen, i'll always love you...
mwah!

oh my.

2009-08-17T03:18:00.002+08:00

hey, i'm at kerel's house rite now.
nuthing much to do, saje mahu tdur rumah kerel.
:)
it's been awhile since my last blog, well here i am again..
semalam, 16/08/09 me, my princess and friends pergi jonker, sorry saya lambat!!
T.T
janji pergi pukul 9, but then at 10 gerak.. semua kerana saya yang perlu menemani kak long ke Jaya Jusco dan mengambil maid saya kat rumah busu, sebab ad kenduri and she have to help my busu la.
and we went to jonker, makan sheber? apatah lupa :p
after jonker, maseh xnak balek rumah sebab diorang nak makan kat d'laman, kelebang ka? hahaha saya melaka murtad ni..
the night is still young, so diorang plan baik punya pergi pantai puteri.
main air laut, pasir.
the best of the night, kerel's and his game! uh, first main kejar2, mmg xla saya nak main. sebab saya malas!!
next game, main the killer, "who's the killer?" "i am" hahahaha.
:D
game nyanyi2 seterusnya, dem ianya perlu daya ingatan yang kuat!! aku main jugak, dem kerel kena kan aku sampai kalah!! hahaha. it's a nice one! ;)
then around three, kitaorang balik. mmemang kitaorang nak men game kerel sampai kul 8 pagi!! cam kat rumah apit ritu. hahahaha.
miss that moment, especially with b.. awww...
memang saya balik terus lepas tu, kul 5 baru balik.
mama, ayah call.. i didn't answer, dlm perjalanan balik pikir apa nak beritahu kat ayah and mama..
aha! saya parking kereta kat luar, cakap remote gate xde battery, tdur kat atas...
uish jahatnyer saya, they buy my story..
oh my...

day that i will never forget.

2009-08-07T12:04:00.002+08:00

After, 6 days of missing her and waiting for her to come back here, the day finally came, it was Thursday.
Such a beautiful day, i smsed her to know the update. She took a bus with her brother at pudu around 3 30, and arrived at 5 sumthing. I was so happy and excited to see her.
:D
Well, i have two surprises for her..
I bought her a JUNO soundtrack, and i put in her laptop bag that she asked me to look after while she's not around.
"All I Want Is You" is one of the track, and i dedicated to her. It's in my other post..
She asked me thru sms, "u letak cd JUNO dalam beg i ke?", i denied and after awhile i just admit it and hoping that she likes the cd soo much..

That night, i asked her for a date and to have dinner. It's a yes. :) Aww..
We were holding hands.. ;)
Then we had our dinner at Pizza Hut, and i ordered her favourite, which is, Hawaiian Chicken Pizza!
Nyum2, seriously i'm full, but she didn't believe it. :(
Then we went for a movie, "G.I Joe". It was a superb movie full with action and blah3.
:D
I held her close like i never want to let her go till the end of the movie..

The night is still young, and i still have another surprise for her. So i decided to go to Ayer Keroh Mc D. I bought a soft drink, and an ice cream for her.. :D
We talked about my life, her life, her exs.. i dun mind, i'm glad she's shared all the story with me..
:) and here come the best part, i asked her to close her eyes, and i opened a ring case, and ask her to open her eyes. she don't want to at first.. but then, surprise! it's a ring! i took out her other ring and replace it with mine.. I dun mind if she want to keep the 'ring' that she wear before.. i'm hoping that she'll wear the ring that i gave to her forever and always.. and she can't stop smiling and speechless..

And i drive her home, an hang out in my car for awhile, we chat and chat.. thinking about some crazy stuff, "what will happened if..", "what if...", :D i really had fun.
i hug her, kiss her forehead.. and i was so speechless when i .... you.. ( you know it syg)
i wish that night will never end, just me and you, always...

Sayang, i love you so much more than anything.

Love,
SHUJAK.

me favourite..

2009-08-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

me favourite is you jak.. ;)

a day with zahin.

2009-08-05T19:27:00.001+08:00

what a great day to spend with my cousin.
he's just came back from alexander, egypt.
thks for the treat. :)
hihihi.

satu hari jak lagi.

2009-08-05T11:15:00.002+08:00

satu hari jak lagi..
sik lamak..
kmk rndu alu2 ktak..

mbak balit gummy bears ke sik?
hahaha..

thanks ajar kamek swak.
suka sgt.

katok, kamek anok org jak guna swak.
kaka ngan ktak juak.

:p

kamek kaka swak ngan nya.

2009-08-05T08:56:00.002+08:00

hi and helo,
yesterday, she taught me sarawak language.
i had fun, excited to learn it.
next language will be melanau!
Aok, can't wait!!
:D

*b, kamek bok blaja swak, b balit nnt kta kaka swak jak, okayh? hahaha... nnt b, leput2 tetak..
kamek syg kitak alu2! mwah!

the biggest loser.

2009-08-04T21:21:00.003+08:00

i dun know anything bout you..
but you hurt me a lot when u hurt someone who i love and care about..

honestly, u're not a man, u're more like a sissy (pondan).

treat her well, make her happy. but you don't. u want her to make you happy and treat you well.

fuck you, fucker.

u're the biggest loser, loser!

Thursday.

2009-08-04T19:56:00.003+08:00

Holidays.

I've been counting days since last friday, 31st July 2009 and waited for Thursday, 6th August 2009.

I miss her so bad, can't wait to surprise her this coming Thursday. (Wondering will she be surprise or am i the only one who's excited about this surprise) :p

I heard she had a lot of fun with Yan, Kay, Mummy, his brother and cousins. I'm so damn happy for her.. and can't stop smiling Especially when she's with her cousin, Hyazree. :)

I Miss you sayang.
Be mine forever n always..

Mwah!!

hush now, my love.

2009-08-03T10:55:00.002+08:00

hush now, sayangg..
i've promised you i'll be by urside always..
and i'll take a good care of you no matter what..
i want to make u happy, n always want to make u smile..
i'm not a perfect man, but i'll try to be as perfect as i can just for you..

hush now, b..
i'm not Shakespeare, nor Romeo,
to write u a beautiful sonnet nor poem,
i'm not so romantic as Romeo,
but sygg,
i want you to know that,
this feeling, the love that i give to you,
can't be describe by words, digit, and what so ever...
only god knows how do i feel and love you..

hush now, my love..
you make me happy,
you make me smile when i'm thinking of you..
you make miss you so much when u're not around..
you give me reason to live..
to love you as i live..
yes, i love you..
i love you sooo much...

"All I Want Is You"

2009-08-01T17:43:00.004+08:00

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and green
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and green
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a river in the mountains tall,
The rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
Just as long as you were with me, when the cold winds blow.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod
If you were a seed, well I'd be a pod.
If you were the floor, I'd wanna be the rug
And if you were a kiss, I know I'd be a hug

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

If you were the wood, I'd be the fire.
If you were the love, I'd be the desire.
If you were a castle, I'd be your moat,
And if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float.

All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea.

I'm Proud To Tell The World.

2009-07-31T11:10:00.002+08:00

I never ever have the guts to say the three words to her.
Honestly, i admire her for the very first time i met her.
Kay's friend, little girl, with cute face and shinning braces on her teeth.
She's a Sarawakian!
I was like "wow", when she talked to Kay using her Sarawak language.
I kinda interested when i heard something new. So i started to learn some new words from both of them.
"Kamek, Kitak, Sik, Tok.." hahaha.

I felt so down, when i was told that she has a boyfriend, from her very own hometown, and of course i heard a lot of what her boyfriend did to her. I was thinking why is he doing that. If i were her, i will feel so terrible and uncomfortable.

So, as times goes by, and i just kept my feeling to myself. Looking at herself from far away view. Wishing that i'll be her man, someday.

It all started with facebook, she added me, her nick is "Shapple Amuro". I was so happy! I saw her online, and i started to IM her on facebook, "Who's this?", eventhough i already know who she is. :p

I built up my guts, strength to get to know her better. Her relationship and everything. Funny, i'm so much in love with her, but it took time for me to say the three words. I just like to comment on her status, picture, tag her in my picture. Friends noticed that me and her, always comment each other and started to talk about us.

I was really shy, why do they have to do this. Till 1 day, friends, Dila, Kay, Yan, Dayat and Helmi were around with her for diner at K9. Like always, they start to talk and made fun of us, I just smile and do nothing. Only god knows my feeling at that momment. T.T

That night, i online and i have 50/50 guts to tell her about my feelings, i started with post a status that sound like this, "I don't have the guts, to say those three words". Kay started to comment it and people starts to like it. She noticed it, and told me " What three words?" I reply on my status again, "143", and she said " That's not words, it's a number". God, at this momment i was shivering like hell..

After awhile, the courage came, i wrote on my status " I love You ok... *malu........" Then she ask the confirmation question, like "Really, Why.. and more" and i gave my words to convinved her, i tell her how, when did this happened, and i can't explain why i love her, like her so much. It just happened, and it happened for a reason.

She reply to my status, and it's a yes. I'm tottally speechless, can't stop smiling plus i wanna cry my lungs out. I'm so so happy.. it was 29th July 2009.

I want to make her happy, laugh out loud with me, to take a good care of her, and stand by her side as long as I live. I don't care who she is in the past, i accept her for what she is and she accepted me for what i am. I love you b. so much. 143 <-- I LOVE YOU!

;)

Hey, Miss Me?

2009-06-07T04:35:00.003+08:00

Dah lama saya xupdate blog, since saya fly ke United Kingdom.
Saya sudah selamat sampai ke Manchester,Liverpool, dan Edinburgh.

Sekarang, saya dan keluarga berada di London. Semua tahu sini summer, tapi sumpah sejuk! Tak macam summer pun.

T.T

Bila kat Malaysia, panas. Sampai sini, sejuk complaint juga.
Pelik!

Blog akan di update, sebab xbest guna laptop syafiq. muehahaha.

left picture: Shujak @ Albert Dock, Liverpool. ;)

salam sayang from me!

Sunday, England!

2009-05-30T13:25:00.001+08:00

Passport
Camera
Video Camera
Baju
Seluar
Boxer
Laptop
Money!
Marlboro Menthol
Lighter

Everything checked!
I'm ready to go.
Woo Hoo!!

sebuk berkata tentang bola, bodoh!

2009-05-28T13:10:00.002+08:00

Kelakar, bila tengok orang argue pasal bola sepak. Especially perempuan. Macam semalam, kat Al Abraar (kedai makan bawah emerald park) macam ye ye je seorang perempuan ni tgk bola. Man U lawan Barcelona. Kalah lelaki, dia punya sorak. Pada pandangan aku, perempuan camni, bodoh2 je. Hahaha.

Then, xpayahlah nak tunjuk kat status, "Man U kalah lah seronoknya" "Jangan emosi Man U kalah".
Hoi! wake up la, kalah ke menang ke, (it's a good game pun malam tadi)

Manchester ke Barcelona ke, diorang dapat duit. Yang nak pergi kecoh, kau dapat duit ke? Adoyh..
T.T sedih la. MALU kat diri anda.

MONSTERS Vs. ALIENS and NIght at The Museum 2

2009-05-28T03:49:00.004+08:00

It was a damn hilarious cartoon movie that i ever watched!
this blue monster, BOB. He was good side kick. Damn u r funny BOB!
And then the president, hahaha.
love the scene that the president act like an idiot. Communicate with an alien with keyboard, and play "Crazy Frog" Song? Stupid american, but hey good job!

Me and Rethdayat, laugh and laugh (non-stop) while watching it.
Hey, i'm a cartoon lover okay?
For you guys who are not, you have to watch it!
:D
Best sgt.

Actually, we had a movie marathon.
First was Monsters Vs. Aliens.
Then, Night at the museum 2

I hate it! Night At the museum, it was lame!
bodoh xbest!
So, you guys.
Never watch that stupid movie.
Grrrr..

I had fun!
;)

Happy Birthday Kak Ngah!

2009-05-27T19:47:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday! Kak Ngah!

Semoga Panjang Umur dan di murahkan rezeki.
Cepat2la habis blaja.
Hahahaha.
Jangan nak kedekut,
tapi xpernah pun kedekut kan.
Urm,
ha, rajin2 la balik melaka.
Jangan sampai terkeluar ayat ni lagi "Eh, dah lain aa rumah!".
So, nampak sangat jarang balik ghumah hahaha.
:p
Happy Birthday again!
Xde hadiah aa.
nak kumpul duit g ENGLAND an?
:D

my bestfriend of the year.

2009-05-27T10:27:00.002+08:00

Waktu sekolah dulu,
bestfriend aku nama dia Ahmad Soleh bin Yusof.
anak lawyer, skang dalam proses nak jadi lawyer dah pun.
Hehehe.
sumpah, waktu dulu2 dia ni dah la anak lawyer tp suka loyar buruk.
memang padan.
dia ni nakal tahap puaka punya.
start kawan dgn dia waktu darjah 2.
sebenarnya, dia ni jiran aku je.
hehehe.

Soleh, banyak mengajar aku jadi budak kampung.
Nakal2 camtu.

Antaranya:-

Main mercun
Tangkap cicak
Main kabait
Panjat bukit
Breakdance (zaman Too Phat)
Pergi Cybercafe
Main Counter-Strike (Sampai addicted)
Main Tamiya
Pokemon
Digimon

dan banyak lagi nak disenaraikan.

Kitaorang dulu, selalu gi sembahyang Jumaat sama2,
Tapi, kitaorang ni jahat.
Time khutbah, duk menikus, senyap, xbising.
Lepas diorang suma bangun nak sembahyang...
Syaitan mana tah rasuk..
Kitaorang gi belakang saf..
Join budak2 sama gila ngan kitaorang,
"Wrestling"
hahahaha..
Lepas diorang suma habis sembahyang,
Uncle Yusof (bapa Soleh) sembahyang sunat.
Kitaorang lak sebuk berlari tunggu kat depan.
Konon dah habis sembahyang, tunggu la..
Hahahaha..

After a few years, segala suka dan duka habis camtu,
sebabnya aku gi sekolah lain, dah masuk skolah menengah kan?
Malacca High School.
Soleh pulak per Sekolah Menengah Agama Sultan Muhammad.
Hehehehe, masuk skolah tu dah jadi orang dah.. T.T

Masuk alam sekolah menegah,
time tu kat high school.
Bestfriend banyak..
Tapi sorang je la aku xboleh lupa.
Nasiruddin Ghafar.
Dia ni dulu sama skolah rendah, xpernah rapat.
Masuk skolah High School, pelan2 rapat.
Nothing much about him.
But kitaorang selalu chit chat jugak dalam kelas.

Perkara yang xboleh blah:-

Budak2 skolah panggil kitaorang Adik-Beradik
Tulisan nak sama ( Pakai pen yang sama PILOT G2)
Badan nak sama besar plak?!

Sampai habis form 3,
then aku tukar sekolah ke Sekolah Menengah Teknik Melaka.
End up macam tu lah. sebab tukar skolah.

Sekolah Menengah Tekni Melaka ni sejujurnya,
memang xbest.
sebab semua satu kaler je.
Melayu..
Lain bangsa bleh kira ngan jari.
T.T
Tapi aku survive jugak.
Sebab jumpa bestfriend aku ni.
hehehehe.
Haziq Adenan.

Dia ni budak high school dulu, dan budak yang main wrestling kat blakang masjid gak.
Kelakarkan dunia?
Aku duk sebelah dia, memang suka buat lawak bodoh.
Kepala pun sama2 ngiong.
Sebabnya, High School dulu xde perempuan, laki je.
Hehhehe.
Best weyh, dapat buat perempuan gelak.
:p

seingat aku, waktu form 4.
Time tu lepas cuti pertengahan tahun.
Semua org dah balik cuti,
except for him.
so aku dah suspect, sumthing wrong ni.
Satu hari tu dia lambat dtg skolah,
xpernah2 datang lambat ke sekolah.
aku ngan selamba tegur dia tanpa tanya apa2
"Weyh, org cuti seminggu kau nak cuti berbulan pulak!hahaha.."
biasalah kawan melawak kan?
"jak, bapa aku meninggal.."
dia jawab, dan sumpah aku tersentap gila babi. tersenyap..
macam, batu yang besar hempap kepala aku.

since then dia banyak berubah, dan dia kena pindah sekolah sebab mak dia kerja kat negeri sembilan dan susah nak ke sekolah even duk asrama.
:)

form 5, ada kawan nak gelak sma2, tp xmacam haziq, my bestfriend.
aku harungi SPM sorang2 la, alhamdulillah. Result gempak x gempak.
Xske skolah teknik! dem...

Then, sebelum result SPM keluar, aku guna result percubaan untuk masuk MMU.
abis SPM, masuk MMU.
Sebabkan, aku xdelah gempak mana, nak apply UPU pun mesti xdapat.
Fikirnya camtu lah.
Padahal result aku ok je, boleh masuk UPU ke apake jadah.
Hahahaha.

Sumpah, masuk MMU xde kawan pun T.T
Masa orentasi, aku cari kawan sendirik.
Chinese guy, Desmond ngan Jack.
Tapi bukan bestfriend.
Sebab bestfriend aku kat MMU ni kerek ngan aku waktu first sem.
Hahahahaha..

Kalau xsilap, second sem aku tetiba je jadi baik.
Ouh nama dia,
Mohammad Rethdayat bin Mohd Yusof
Masuk dia,
dua org anak Yusof aku knal.
hahaha.
Soleh ngan Dayat.

Cerita aku knal ngan dia best gila,
sebab Multi Level Marketing (MLM)
Aku terkena ngan member aku ni.
Citer nak gempak, bisnes ni boleh kaya aper tah.
Then dia suruh pergi talk, dan aku rasa tertipu.
Aku bawa cerita ni kat MMU, so that org lain xterkena nanti.
Ghupe2nye, Dayat ni pun sama kes ngan aku.
Tu yang duk kongsi cerita, then lepak2 kenal.
Sampai skang.
Aku citer kat dia, kau kerek dulu eh ngan aku.
Hahahaha..
dia kata, mana ade kau yang kerek..
Padahal kelas kami, 2 orang je melayu.
Aku ngan dia.
:D

Alhamdullilah, korang lah suma penyeri hidup ni.
suka duka semua sama.
;)

My Bestfriend;

Ahmad Soleh (Leh)
Nasiruddin Ghafar (Nasir)
Haziq Adenan ( Haziq)
Rethdayat Yusof (Dayat)

meet my ex girlfriends.

2009-05-26T20:12:00.002+08:00

me and my ex-gfs.

pertama sekali, merupakan chenta monyet.
kat sekolah rendah dulu,
nama dia, Najihah binti Shamsudin.
specky, chinese looking.
start dgn mengutus surat.
waktu tu Syuhada binti Amil jadi orang tgh.
lost contact dgn dia lepas, sekolah menengah.
sebab dia ke sabah.
:) comel.

-END Of the FIRST STORY-

then right after sekolah menengah,
minat dgn anak kawan mama.
Fatin Raihana binti Md Sin.
Pandai dan comel.
dia anak kawan Mama.
So, xboleh blah.
Xpernah tegur dia pun dalam kelas.
hahaha.
Dulu blaja, target nak kalahkan dia je.
Yes, and i did it!
Habis skolah, saya start usha dia.
SMS dan ajak tgk wayang.
:)
Lepas dah masuk University,
Last year on my b'day.
"Can I be ur bf?"
Dia kata nanti dia btau waktu b'day dia,
Which is the next 3 days.
and she said "Yes"
HAPPY!

Here come the sad part is.
T.T

1st to 3rd month
still boleh call and SMS

4th to 5th month
SMS jarang2 kadang2

6th month
Xde khabar berita.

7th month
pergi mampus la.

END UP MACAM SIAL
dan sampai sekarang aku nak tahu kenapa.
if dah xsuka cakap je lah, i dun mind.
just dun keep me waitting la kan.
ambil kau.
7th month -> PERGI MAMPUSLA!

Third couple best gila.
Farhana binti Mohd. Nizam.
Saya suka kat dia sebab,
dia comel, main kamera.
:)
Jumpa dia kat Shah Alam.
Before that pernah ke Mc Donald Dp ngan dia.
dating!
hehehe.
Then kat Shah Alam tu gi makan ngan dia n kawan2 adik saya.
Balik rumah,
SMS ngan dia dan couple.
:p

END UP pun cam apa je.
1 month ke? kot..
She start not to answer my calls, SMS pun kadang2 xjawab.
Lastly dia kata, dia xready untuk couple.
haish~!!
ok fine, take ur time
:)

teruk..
T.T

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2009-05-26T12:09:00.000+08:00

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Bubba Gump!

2009-05-26T02:32:00.000+08:00

Last Thursday,
Saya di paksa pergi ke Kuala Lumpur.
Sebab saya kena ambil Vaksin H1N1, bagi mencegah selsema bila berada kat England nanti.
Dalam perjalanan ke K.L, otak ni lapar je.
Kak Long bagi idea dinner kat mana.

BUBBAGUMP!

Pernah dgr la, dr kawan2 saya.
Xpernah kesitu.
dan excited.

Kamera xnak tinggal!
Dan ada beberapa shots yg menarik untuk di kongsi.
Kenyang, sampai muak.
Nak buat macam mana?
:p
Nyum2..

Multimedia University

2009-05-26T00:49:00.001+08:00

start sem,
relax.

midterm datang,
konon2 sebok study.

lepas midterm,
start ponteng lecture class, tutorial.

sebelum final,
kecoh2 buat assignment.

final,
terkial2 nak study balik.

shujak, ini lah mmu kan?
xnak berubah.
T.T

earth hour.

2009-03-25T14:46:00.000+08:00

earth hour, di mana pada tanggal 28 haribulan Mac, sepakat kita semua, mematikan kuasa elektrik bagi menghentikan pemanasan global.

ini adalah baik, dan bernas. sekiranya kita mampu buat begini seminggu sekali. aku pasti sedikit sebanyak kesan akan memberi impak kepada kita dan bumi hijau.

maka, marilah kita semua, menyertai earth hour ini!

28 Mac 2009
8.30 malam - 9.30 malam.
Sabtu.

Jyeah!

Liburan di Jogjakarta.

2008-12-29T11:12:00.000+08:00

24 Disember 2008 lepas, aku dengan family pergi ke Jogjakarta. Dimana kota yg pernah digemparkan dgn gempa bumi Gunung Merapi pada Jun 2006.
Tujuannya hanya satu, untuk melihat sejarah negeri tersebut, iaitu candi-candi lama, seperti Candi Prabanam dan paling famous dalam buku sejarah korang iaitu candi Borobudur. :D

Bermula pukul 10 30 aku, ayah, dan mama bertolak dari melaka ke LCCT, manakala Kak Long, Kak Ngah dan Syafiq bertolak dari Puchong ke LCCT sendiri, dan menunggu kitaorang sampai.
Dalam 1 jam setengah sampailah kat LCCT dan check in barang. Flight kitaorang delay kejap hahaha.

Dalam flight aku bantai tidur dalam 30 minit, lepas tu bangun beli makanan [AirAsia lah!] pastu sambung tidur balik. Flight dari LCCT Kuala Lumpur ke Jogjakarta mengambil masa 2 jam 30 minit je. Xbanyak benda nak buat, so aku tdur sampai landing.

Kitaorang xplan pun ad tourist guide ke apa, sampai je kat airport, ambil semua barang, check suma cukup, then ad org approach nak bagi tour untuk 2 hari. Ayah terus setuju, dan ride kita untuk 2 hari pertama ialah Kijang, Inova. Supirnya (Driver) Mas Agus.

Seperti biasa kitaorang check in hotel, Hotel Melia Jogjakarta. Welcome drink Kak Long dan Ayah habis aku kerjakan. Ye la, sikit je dia bagi, dah la haus. Haha. Check in hotel selesai, masuk bilik kitaorang rehat dulu. Lepas tu Mas Agus kata nak bawa kitaorang jalan2 dan Ayah plan untuk ke Borobudur esok harinya.

Malam tu lepas rehat, kitaorang pergi ke Ramayana Ballet dan dinner kat sana. Ramayana Ballet merupakan epik atau legenda ataupun epik hindu, senang2 kau orang wikipedia je. Haha. Lepas tu Mas Agus bawa kitaorang pergi pusing2 ke Kraton, dan terbaik sekali Mas Agus bawa kitaorang kat tempat Batik. Penting sekali Mama borong habis batik2 kat situ, aku? Haha hanya kebosanan sahaja seperti biasa. Lepas tu baik hotel dan tidur. Kepenatan la juga.

Esoknya, selepas breakfast, 8 30 pagi (waktu indonesia) Mas Agus dah tunggu dah nak ke Borobudur. Planning awal, Ayah nak tgk sunrise kat Borobudur, disebabkan cuaca yang tak baik, pada pagi2 tu, planning terus tukar tgk Borobudur waktu petang. "Sunset in Borobudur". Menunggu petang, kitaorang pun pusing2 kat kota. Kalau kat Malaysia kita panggil beca, kat sana panggil "becak". Dalam perjalanan ke Borobudur, ada candi lagi sebelum Borobudur, malah lebih lama dari Borobudur, iaitu candi Prabanam.

Untuk membuang masa hingga kepetang, menunggu sunset di borobudur, so, kitaorang pergi lah ke candi Prabanam. Xboleh nak berkata2, sebab cantik sgt struktur binaan candi ni. Sebenarnya, waktu tu banyak candi2 dalam proses baik pulih, sebab tragedi gempa gunung Merapi effect candi Prabanam, so kitaorang xlah masuk dalam candi2 yg sedang baik pulih. Berkesempatan juga kitaorang naik salah satu candi, dimana candi tu di lukis jalan cerita hidup krishna. Kalau nak tahu cerita Krishna tu, apakata kau orang wikipedia je. Haha. Aku malas nak taip le. Kat Prabanam tu ada tiga candi dan di apit lagi dua candi, kalau x silap aku berapa tah candi yg xsiap lagi 222 agaknya. Ada unsur trinity juga kat candi ni kalau minat sejarah mesti tahu. Tapikan aku xsempatlah nak tulis panjang lebar.

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theSHJK homestudio.

2008-11-08T23:30:00.001+08:00

Baru setahun jagung dalam dunia musik.

Aku ada buat home studio kecil-kecilan di rumah.

Dalam menhasilkan sebuah home studio, wanjah dan ayah banyak mendorong.

Setakat ini dua buah lagu unmix preview telah aku hasilkan dan di upload kat page theBAGINDA! dan juga di page AMP channel[V]

Lagu-lagunya ialah "Dunia Kita Berbeza" dan "Kamu".

Aku baru sahaja belajar, kalau salah faham2 je la.. hahaha.

theBAGINDA T Shirt!!

2008-10-16T11:56:00.000+08:00

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SUPERHERO;SUPERZERO

2008-10-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

SUPERHERO/SUPERZERO
Category: Music

Tell the world,
The world so high,
That you are,
Not that good.

But somehow,
You realize,
You are,
Not that bad.

You're not a SUPERHERO.
You're not a SUPERZERO

Okay, GO!

;)

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"Kalau salah, Tolong tunjukkan..."

2008-10-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

"Buah Cempedak di luar pagar,
Ambil galah tolong jolokkan,
Aku budak baru belajar,
Kalau salah tolong tunjukkan."

;)

SHJK