random.

i can't see, but i can feel something.

are you?

since you are away.

since you are away, i'm lost.
where are you love?
i'm all alone, when you left me.
there's no more smile.
no more laugh.
pain, you left me here.
i miss you, i really really miss you.

since you are away,
i'm nothing.
you left me an empty heart.
i'm not the man i used to be.
searching for you.
waiting for you.

since you are away,
i think about you.
every minutes and every seconds.
where's my sweetheart?
hold my hands,
so i won't get lost.

since you are away,
all the memories,
sad, happy still in my mind.
will never fade away.
because i know,
that's what i need the most.
right here, right now.

since you are away,
u're my painkiller,
u are the one who can take this pain away.
i'm addicted to you.
my painkiller.
take my pain away, now and forever.

since you are away,
only god knows,
how much do i miss you.
how much do i love you.
how much do i care about you.
it's hard.
but i try and try and never give up.

since you are away,
i'm waiting patiently,
to see you in front of my eyes,
to see ur smile,
to hear ur laugh.
to hold you and never ever let you go.
i love you.

:'(

demam.

peristiwa yang berlaku kat melaka central kelmarin, maseh mengugat jiwa, terkilan dan sedih. syaz, balik ke shah alam bersama teman2, dan pulang ke rumah esok harinya. sedihnya aku, cuba bertenang dan lupakan segala duka.
tatkala dia pulang, aku demam. kata ku, demam rindu agaknya. entahlah. banyak yang difikirkan. tertanya2 kenapa aku jarang benar berblogging sejak akhir2 ini?
demam, yang kian reda, kemalasan, kebuntuan mencari jalan. tiada shiapa disisi untuk menemani. kini, aku terpuruk dirumah, di hadapkan tv, laptop, dan ps3. aku bosan.
kata2 rindu diucapkan bertalu talu, tanpa mengenal penat lelah pun.
mendengar suara dia, nun jauh mengubat segala kerinduan. tapi jauh disudut hati, alangkah indahnya jika aku juga ada bersamanya. iri hati, bila mendengar dia keluar dengan kawan2nya sedangkan aku seorang diri, berjalan entah ke mana, keseorangan. menonton, makan, seorang di panggung wayang, melihat orang lain yang berpasangan. sedihnya.
aku di hujani seribu persoalan, sejuta pertanyaan. kemana dia menghilang. begitu juga rakan2, teman seperjuangan yang kini jauh di mata mahupun di hati, sms xsekali, telefon pun ujung2 kali. aku sudah biasa, katakan apa saja aku terima. kini, telefon yang menjadi perhubungan utama telah hancur musnah aku kerjakan, akan kebodohan aku. ianya musnah di depan mata. :)

i remember.

dulu, saya malu dengan awak.
saya xbanyak cakap.
saya suka tgk awak.
awak comel.
bila awak bercakap sarawak dengan kay.
hati saya lagi terpikat.
jatuh hati saya kat awak.
tapi saya ni pemalu.
jadi saya simpan sahaja rasa sayang, cinta, dan suka pada awak.
masa pun berputar pantas.
saya kenal awak dari jauh.
xdekat pun dengan awak.
bermula dengan facebook.
saya lagi rapat dengan awak.
saya ajak awak keluar.
saya purpose awak untuk jadi gf saya.
sampai sekarang dah 2 bulan lebih.
kita bersama dari tarikh 29 Julai 2009.
saya harap, semuanya indah antara kita berdua.
hingga akhir hayat.
sampai saya pejam mata.
amin..

sayataktahuapayangsayarasasekarang.

Nooneknows.howdoifeelorwhatdoifeelrighthererightnow.i'munpredictable,isingalot,justtomakemyselfcalm.iplayloudmusicinmy heart,justtoforgiveandforget.deepinsidemyheartthosethingswillalwayskeeponspinninginmyhead.Willitbewonderful,ifthere'sonlymeandyou?Will itwonderfultoforgetordelete hepast?Idon'tknow,itwillkeeponplayingand playing..what'surs?

everything

if you talk, i'll lend my ears.
if you cry, i'll give my shoulder.
if you're happy, i'll give my smile.
if you're crying, i'll give you my jokes
if you're cold, i'll give you my hug

what if i am?

maaf, bila aku tak sempurna.

maaf, bila aku tak pernah sempurna buat kamu.

i care about someone.

do you ever cry for someone that you really love?
do you even care about someone you love?
well i do.
i love you so much
there's no one can ever replace you in my heart
you're my soul, my lungs, my air.
you're my everything.
i care about you more than i care about meself
i'll give you the world
i'll give up my life.
just for you.
i would die for you.
because you're the only ONE that i care about.
:(